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The fall of the angels September 30, 2008

Posted by philangelus in angels, religion.
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We don’t really know what happened when the angels got divided into light and dark. It’s not something made completely clear in scripture, although of course everyone speculates. Revelation 12 states clearly that war broke out in Heaven and the dragon (ie, Satan) swept a third of the stars down from the sky. We assume God posed a test to the angels, and whatever it was, it was so tough that a third of them couldn’t do it. Or wouldn’t.

There’s a passage in Ezekiel about how Lucifer tried to raise his throne higher than God’s, but I can’t imagine it was a literal rebellion along the lines of “You’ve been king long enough; now it’s my turn.” They knew God was omnipotent. I think it was more along the lines of, “I don’t want to do what you want me to do. I want to stand alone.”

If you look at the context of Revelation 12, the rebellion of the angels is placed immediately beside the depiction of the woman clothed with the sun, the holy tabernacle. And she gives birth to a child that is clearly supposed to be Jesus. This led the church fathers to speculate that it was the incarnation of Jesus as a man which caused the angels to rebel: they didn’t want to worship God incarnate in a lower form, man being “a little less than the angels” according to the psalm.

But what it if wasn’t Jesus specifically? What if it was just the idea that God would breathe His life into matter, into an animal thing?

It doesn’t seem offensive to us because we are animal things. We’re used to us. But if you’re an angel and you’re used to thinking of matter as something you play with, something you see as a reflection of God’s glory but not really glorious in itself, that’s got to be a shock. It’s absurd. It would be the same thing as you coming home to find your mother kissing a pig, and then she sets a place for it at the table and says the two of you will be sharing a bedroom. Why are you doing that? What are you trying to prove? That’s just wrong!

What if they felt God’s holiness was so great, so pure, so tremendous, that cramming His life into a temporary biological construct (smelly, awkward, limited) was an affront to the order of things? What if they knew they’d have to love the Spirit of God in such a monstrous hybrid, unless they stopped loving God completely?

It’s the equivalent of “I can’t bear to see you this way, so I won’t see you at all.”

And a third of them couldn’t. 

We don’t know; we’ll never know in this lifetime, and it’s possible we’re better off not knowing.

Michaelmas! September 29, 2008

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September 29th used to be known as Michaelmas. Nowadays no one knows what that is. The Catholic Church celebrates today as the feast days of Saint Michael, Saint Gabriel and St. Raphael the Archangels.

I’ve always found it unfair that human saints get their own feast days, but the Catholic Church expects the archangels to shaaaaare. Your proper response to that is “Get over it, Jane,” and I understand. But still, allow me to gripe for a minute: St. Gabriel used to have March 24th for his feast day (the day before the Annunciation) and St. Raphael used to have October 24th, but they got moved over to St. Michael’s feast day. And then no one was put on those two feast days to replace them. It’s kind of like thelandlord breaking your lease so you have to move in with your brother, but then not moving anyone else into the apartment.

I’m done with my self-indulgent rant. You can tune back in now, guys. Sorry.

We’ve seen Michael in the Bible as the defender of the nation of Israel and later as the defender of the Christian faith. (He never identifies himself, by the way. He’s always identified by someone else.) Gabriel shows up as Daniel’s interpreter, and later as the annunciator to Zachariah and to the Virgin Mary. Raphael is one of the main characters of the Book of Tobit (sacred scripture in the Catholic and Orthodox Bibles but not included in Protestant Bibles).

Why are these three special enough to be the only named angels in scripture? No clue. We know there are millions of millions of angels (according to Daniel) and we assume the rest of them have names too. (As Bucky says in Honest and For True, “Hey You just lacks that distinctive ring.”)  But we see them in the Bible, when asked, turn it back around at the asker and either refuse to give their name or else ask why the person wants to know. Clearly they don’t want to be worshipped as idols. But three of them in later books do get to tell us their names.

Being as we’re the Philangelus household, tonight we get to celebrate a little for them. Angels don’t eat, but as an Italian I cannot fathom a celebration without food, so I’ll be making a little Michaelmas cake for us tonight. And not angel food cake, either (bad me) but a lemon cake, like grandma used to make. 

October 2nd will be the feast day of the Guardian Angels (and so six billion angels get to share a feast day too) so I’ll try to have angel-themed posts between now and then. On the last day, I’ll make a lasagna for our seven household guardians, and if I get ambitious I might buy a cheesecake too.

Bon appetit, and happy Michaelmas!

(Oh, and for my Jewish readers, happy Rosh Hashanah!)

Submission silliness September 28, 2008

Posted by philangelus in writing.
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Over at The Writing Life, agent Terry Whalin tells about someone who sent chapters two and eleven as his sample chapters.

Since I sent him chapters one, two and twelve as my sample chapters, let me explain. (And no, I’m not the person he’s blogging about.)  

Unless the instructions specifically say to send the first three chapters, beginning writers are told to send their very best chapters in their proposal. There’s no excuse for chapter one not being your very best chapter, but if your best writing is in chapter eleven, then they tell you to send chapter eleven. It makes no sense to hope the agent or editor will slog through ten chapters to make it there.

I’ve been assured by editors at conferences that they can tell from a page or two in the middle whether you can write your way out of a paper bag. In fact, I’ve seen them do it. As someone who’s been workshopped since age eleven, I’ve heard that advice (“send your very best chapters”) at least a hundred times.

Is that advice ridiculous? Well, that’s another question. To him obviously, it is, and therefore when you submit to him, you send chapters one, two and three. Others’ mileage may vary.

I have to admit, leaving out chapter one is beyond absurd. If your story doesn’t start until chapter two, then your best bet is to carefully highlight the first chapter and hit the delete key. Even Isaac Stern had to tune his violin and warm up, but he didn’t record that part. Same thing with useless chapter ones. And don’t tell me it’s your prologue, either. I’m not stupid. :)

(Can you tell I worked my way through grad school by tutoring freshmen?)

Mr. Whalin states that in a book store, he opens to page one. To tell you the truth, in a book store, I open to the middle and read a random page where I know the author isn’t on his best behavior any longer. I want to see how the author treats me after he thinks I’m a sure thing.

As an aside: Can you tell my creativity is returning? Six months after a new baby, two months after a move, and suddenly the brain cells have begun making connections again. I want to write and submit and publicize my book. Three months after having Kiddo#3, I decided I no longer wanted to be a failed writer, and the stories in the sidebar are the result. It’s taken longer after K4, but I’m intrigued to see what’s happening, and I wonder where God’s going to take this burst of energy.

And there was joy in Angelborough September 27, 2008

Posted by philangelus in family, religion, sarcasm.
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Yesterday stank.

It’s hard to find the right words to explain the awfulness of yesterday, so I’ll give a few bullet points:

  • I woke up way too early.
  • Kiddo#2 had a dentist appointment to fix problems with her molars.
  • Our old dentist is fifty-five miles away
  • Because of the timing, I did the trip with all the kids except Kiddo#1. This wouldn’t have been so bad except that
  • The dentistry office had changed their layout, and instead of having one huge children’s room, they now have tiny children’s rooms where I can’t cram in with all these kids.
  • Some lunatic truckers didn’t see why the rain meant they should slow down. (Or maybe 80mph was slowing down for them.)
  • Kiddo#2 got all swollen in the face after a few hours. I’m not sure if it’s a hematoma or an allergic reaction to the novocaine.
  • The baby refused to be put down for any length of time.
  • My Patient Husband was late coming home from work.

There’s more, but you get the point. Just a draggy day of domestic ick.

So you can imagine how I felt by the end of the day. It was a relief to load up the much-hated dishwasher and then call the kids down for evening prayers.

We always start with “What good things happened today?” in order to keep their eyes not only on our needs but also on the tremendous blessings God has given our family. Some days, it’s tough to find something good (“We had cookies”), but we always look.

Last night, as I searched the darkness of my heart for a reason to rejoice, I had a sudden revelation, like a blinding ray from the heavens striking my heart: the dishwasher had stopped.

I looked at my Patient Husband, eyes wide. He looked at me. 

As the deer bounds from hilltop to hilltop, so I bounded to the kitchen, where the dishwasher stood: short, proud, old, and undeniably dead.

I know it’s wrong to rejoice in a death, but there you have it. I’d found my good thing for the day.

 

 

(Now in all fairness, I did try to get it started again, and it went belly-up a second time. We tried it again this morning, after giving it time to think about what it had done, and unfortunately, it’s running once more. But oh, for a moment there, the joy, the joy, the joy…)

Meg’s thoughts about marriage September 26, 2008

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This was posted on another forum I frequent, and I thought it so insightful that I asked permission to repost it on my weblog. The author is Megan Clarke, and she took the photo as well.

I came across my late grandmother’s wedding band in my mom’s jewelry box (I was there with permission!) I had never seen it before, since my grandmother was widowed long before I was born.

 

I thought it was very sweet: a gold band with little crosses engraved on it. I mentioned that to my mom, and she laughed. In actuality, the “crosses” started off as orange blossoms, and with time, they wore down so all that remained were cross-like figures. Apparently my grandmother always found that ironic; their marriage was troubled and they were separated for years before his death. 

The symbolism struck me, though. We all get married with orange blossoms and discover unexpected crosses along the way. I was reminded that my Grummy is praying for my marriage and our crosses, and there are many people and saints praying for all of us who struggle within our marriages.

Please join me today in praying for those in troubled marriages. Please pray that as the orange blossoms fade into crosses, that the couples can carry their crosses together rather than separately.

Uncle Mayhem versus The Boy September 25, 2008

Posted by philangelus in family, kiddos, sarcasm.
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When I saw that Kiddo#1 had gotten a package from Uncle Mayhem, I was confused. I’d spoken to him only a week earlier and he hadn’t mentioned an impending package. And trust me, I’m not calling him Uncle Mayhem without good cause.

Uncle Mayhem, in case he’s reading this, is probably laughing his head off at his moniker. He’s from the Italian side of my family, and Uncle Mayhem loves to start a good debate at family gatherings. Given that we’re Italians, it’s a fight. And usually it’s about something none of us really cares about, but we’ll all get strident and argue and it’s great fun for Uncle Mayhem. I’ve seen him moving from group to group at these gatherings trying to get a rise out of someone. He went to my Patient Husband, for example, and tried to start a PC versus Mac debate. It didn’t work. Last time, he tried to get me into an argument about whether Joseph actually married Mary, because it doesn’t say so explicitly in the Bible.

Uncle Mayhem also has a heart of gold, but he doesn’t want you to know that, so I’ll leave that out of the story. He has in the past sent me slides and photos of my family from fifty years ago, which I very much appreciated.

Kiddo#1 got home, slit open the box, and in it he found thirty baseball cards (twenty loose, some from as early as 1968, and one unopened ten-pack.)  Here is the letter which accompanied them:

Dear Kiddo#1,

I found out from your grandmother that you are a “Boston” fan. And since I am a YANKEE fan I knew I had some Red Sox baseball cards to give away.

I was quite upset for a while but finally realized that in God’s MASTER PLAN there will be a few lost souls that are going to be Red Sox fans. So that is when I thought of sending you my Red Sox baseball cards.

Now if you do not want them, I can understand since I do not want them either.

But if you are a true Boston fan and keep them, then maybe you will want the rest of the Red Sox baseball cards I have.

Let me know one way or the other. Hope everyone is well.

Love,
Uncle Mayhem

By the time we got to the end of this, Kiddo#1 and I were crying with laughter. Kiddo#1 wrote him a very nice thank you note that night and said yes, he would gladly rehome any baseball cards that Uncle Mayhem didn’t want. But in my heart, I wish he’d sent this:

Dear Uncle Mayhem,

My condolences. I was terribly grieved to read about your choice of fandoms. You don’t have to do that just because you live near New York, you know. I am glad to rescue your unloved baseball cards and give them a home where they would be appreciated for the treasures they are. If you cannot bear true enlightenment, of course I will take the rest of them, but I would rather you study them to mend the errors of your misguided heart. I will pray for you every day and light a candle before my picture of Ted Williams.

Love, 
Kiddo#1

Because, you see, I too can create mayhem.

A new story online, and a book review September 24, 2008

Posted by philangelus in Seven Archangels: Annihilation, writing.
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In my writing life, either everything happens at once, or nothing happens at all. We’ve had a bit of nothing for a while.

Yesterday, Cricket asked me if my Ichthys piece was online, and it’s not, but while I was scanning the Door archives, I found that another one was.

Yep, here it is: Executive Summary for Downsizing and Outsourcing Movement of Chosen People for Maximum Return on Covenant Investment which has got to be the longest title anyone has ever appended to one of my pieces. I think I called it “Management Proposal For Chosen People” or something similar. This was one of those things I wrote after being just fed up with the universe around me, and of course, they gave me a borderline-offensive image to illustrate the piece. ;)

Apparently I also won sixth place in their “March Indulgence Awards” which gets me out of having to brew coffee for several years in Purgatory. I wish they’d given me time off from having to clean out the Archangel Gabriel’s basement for a hundred years due to what I did to him in my novel.  **shudder** And speaking of the novel…

TitleTrakk gave us a nice review of Seven Archangels: Annihilation and said it was imaginative, fun and fast-paced, but apparently they didn’t find it logical. The bonding made the reviewer a little uncomfortable, but there was no objection to Mary appearing in the book.

The logic part is owing the the reviewer not liking the ideas of angels potentially not being eternal or angels acting imperfectly, or emotionally. I’m not going to get into a debate here, but the Bible does indicate angels have emotions and are imperfect (only God is perfect) meaning I guess I didn’t establish that well enough in the book itself.

So, a hat tip for the review, and if you’re new to this weblog, please go check it out and visit the book’s website or read some of the chapters over at Mindflights.com (accessible right from their front page under “serial fiction”.)

Thanks!

I have a cough September 24, 2008

Posted by philangelus in Asperger's, family, kiddos, sarcasm.
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There is a difference between thinking you are clever and actually being clever.

The above is something we tell our children all the time, or at least we say it to one another when they can’t hear or before they’re old enough to understand. That’s usually the response during their “sneakitude” phase, when they think they are being sneaky but in actuality are so transparent that the light doesn’t even slow down when it reaches them.

Case number one: cough drops. They all like the things: individually wrapped, a little sweet, and hanging up high in that basket they cannot reach and therefore much to be craved. 

We parents, of course, are meeeeeeean, and we refuse to give them out unless the child actually has a sore throat.

Our children then develop raging sore throats. It’s like clockwork. My Patient Husband and I generally perform a miraculous healing by means of saying “I don’t think so” and then the child forgets about it. 

Kiddo#3 has changed his tune, inasmuch as coughs have tunes. In the past week or so, he’s taken to simply coughing.

A lot.

Many, many coughs. And then he rasps, “I need a cough drop.”

The performance would garner an Oscar, and really, I ought to get it on video. No predator ever exhibited such patience, such forethought. Because he’ll quietly cough and then wait, cough, pause, cough, and do it six or seven times before issuing the request: if only, if only, someone could give him a cough drop.

Alas for him, I got rid of my stupids years ago. Because you see, before I tangled with Kiddo#3, I had to face the mighty force that is Kiddo#1.

Kiddo#1, he of the Asperger’s, has an interesting perspective on the way the world works. Lacking the social interpretive skills most of us take for granted, he memorizes social interactions as if they’re the steps of a dance, and then he executes them in time to the music everyone else hears. For the most part,  it’s a good impression.

And so we flash back to a day in 2000, when Emily had recently died and I couldn’t have cared less about the niceties of healthy meals. We had a few iron-clad rules (no more than one ice-cream per day, for example) but other than that, as long as it was edible, I was cool with it. We ordered out too often in those days, when my mental functioning was barely above baseline.

On this night in 2000, we find our heroes (that’s me, Patient Husband, and Kiddo#1) arriving at Friendly’s for dinner. And as we got out of the car, Kiddo#1 said, “I don’t want to go in.”

We paused. The Boy, passing up a trip to Friendly’s? And worse, making me cook? This was tragic. I said, “Why not?”

He said, “I can’t go in. I have a cough.”

About four seconds elapsed, him with this querulous look on his face, and then he went :koff:.

I had a very tough time not bursting out laughing. 

And then I realized.  ”Oh! You had ice cream after lunch. Today, you can have two ice creams.”

His tuberculosis thus eradicated, Kiddo#1 hopped out of the car and led the way into Friendly’s.

We parents work miraculous cures, you see. And no, you still can’t have that cough drop.

intimacy, communication, God September 23, 2008

Posted by philangelus in angels, religion.
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There are nights when my Patient Husband and I spend the time together, but parallel. He’s doing his thing and I’m doing mine. He may be reading while I crochet. He and I may be surfing the web on our separate computers. But we’re in the same room, comfortably together and yet not really talking. But there’s still communication. It’s a good thing.

Not all the time, of course. Over time, communication is the best weapon we have for protecting our marriage. At times, though, being together-yet-quiet is a good thing. It happens sometimes when we’re cooking together, sometimes when we’re at church and he just takes my hand and squeezes it, or sometimes when we’re doing our own thing and he catches my eye across the room.

What if we could do the same with God? It’s not an all-the-time thing, but it occurred to me that Jesus’ injunction to “pray always” might at times mean that you’re doing your thing while God is doing His, and yet you’re together. You’re aware.

I’ve tried this a few times, and I like the feeling. I’m loading the dish washer and I imagine Jesus sitting at the table reading the newspaper. Or I’m folding laundry and imagine Jesus on the couch with a book. (Jesus frequently reads in my imagination.)

For some reason, this feels to me like sanctifying the work I do. It’s not much, and it takes a little practice for me to get into the groove of it (or else I just forget and my mind wanders off into….Ooh! Shiny!)

It’s not difficult to do, is my first thought. And yet I enjoyed it. Clearly this kind of imagining doesn’t take the place of actual prayer, but it does seem to foster a deep silent intimacy with God. If you can imagine God watching you fold your socks, it’s a very different feeling from imagining God entering His password (86 million characters long, in hex) into His email to download your latest prayers. There’s more solidarity. It cuts through the pretense.

Back when I was in college, I used to take my guardian angel out for coffee. I’d go over to McDonald’s after going to the Saturday Mass down the hill, or else after we got back from visiting the nursing home on Sunday. And then I’d get a little table for two (you know, the half-booth. This is McDonald’s we’re talking about, not Chez Expensive) and I’d chatter in his general direction. I’d imagine him sitting in the seat across from me and just talk about this, that or the other thing. Nothing profound. Nothing awe-inspiring. And then when coffee was finished, I’d go home. 

It’s hardly Midnight Mass at the Cathedral of the Holy Trinity, but it was good. And in its own way, it’s something we can all do. 

Give it a try. The next time you find yourself facing two baskets of unfolded socks, ask God to join you while you fold them.

Oh those paradigm shifts September 22, 2008

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My son got a phone call from one of his school friends, and shortly afterward, he had a puzzled look.

The lowered the phone and said, “Could {Name} and I hang out on Friday?”

I said, “Sure. Where?”

He gets back on the phone and, very hesitantly, says, “Where do you want to do that?”  A moment later, “Hang out?”

You see, he’s hitting right now the wall I didn’t hit until high school. Last year, when his friend came over, they played. This year, when his friend comes over, they hang out.

Speaking from a mother’s perspective, hanging out looked a lot like playing together. They talked a bit, looked over his baseball cards, and then went outside and threw a baseball to one another, then practiced batting. They did some joking around and some running. Overall, remarkably like what he used to call “playing” but now it’s “hanging out.”

This weekend, they hung out again. This time it involved baseball in the yard and Legos in the house.

The problem is, “playing” is for kids. And they’re at the age where they’re still kids in their bodies, but they’re moving into the head-space of adults. They do kid things and want to call them by other words. And the way I changed over from being “Momma” to “Mom,” the activities are changing names too.

The irony is, to babies and toddlers and preschoolers, “play” is serious work. It’s experimentation. It’s learning. It’s an attempt to make sense of the world by trying on new roles and being people they aren’t usually, by mimicking some activities and exploring others. My youngest “plays” with a toy by putting it into his mouth and learning its texture, then looking at it and manipulating it with his hands, learning about the toy and learning about himself.

Meanwhile, my oldest is learning about friendships and language and how who we are changes over time. It’s play in its own way after all.